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Emotional struggles
Old 06-11-2019, 01:57 AM
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Hi everyone,

I just finished my first year of teaching as an ELL teacher for grades 3-5. I've been looking for a new job the past few months and wasn't able to find one for ELL. I have just been offered a middle school foreign languages job, and a few years ago I would have been ecstatic about the opportunity, but now I'm just depressed about leaving my kiddos. I've been looking to leave because with the current immigration policies, our district isn't getting any new ELL families, and my position might be cut in the next year or so. I know that financially changing to a more stable job is the right thing for me to do, but I'm struggling with the fact that I feel like I did more good as an ELL teacher and that I won't be able to impact students lives in any way with having my groups for only 9 weeks.

I think that a second part of my struggle is that I love to teach reading and I won't be able to do that in my new position. For years all I wanted to do was teach languages, and now it seems worthless compared to what I did with my kiddos this past year.

Lastly, and this is totally a personal issue, my boyfriend just graduated with a degree in elementary education and I'm now jealous that he will always have students who "need" him. I don't see my new position in that way. This past year, through all of the ups and downs, I've known that my kids needed services, and that made those downs a lot easier to swallow.

I know that I don't have to stay in this position forever, but having to make the change for job security is really hurting right now. I just needed to get everything off my chest.

Sorry this was so long!

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