I am so sad tonight.

We had to close a section of first grade because we are low on numbers. We reduced from four to three. None of us wanted to move to fourth grade (least tenured teacher on fourth so she got moved).
Well, principal called this morning to tell me I was the chosen one to move to fourth grade. I am sad. I love first grade. I never thought I could teach first grade, and here I am 8 years later sad that I'm being moved from one of the loves of my life.
And I'm even more upset because of his reasons for moving me. I am the most competent one, I'm flexible, I'm a superstar teacher, it's good for me to have a variety of experiences and not be "stuck" in one grade level because of what I'd like to do in the future (I plan to eventually leave the classroom and do something else within education-I don't know what though).
I'm sad. There are many good reasons for the change. However, it would be easier to have been told of this change months ago rather than just over a week before we go back. I have 10 days to wrap my head around this before I go back.
Another downside-I LOVE teaching reading and math. Love it. Well, we specialize in fourth grade and I'm teaching science, health, and writing. So not excited about that either. It'd be a little better if it were reading or math.
I've been told I will really enjoy it after I get used to it. I sure hope so because I'm miserable now. I'm mad he didn't choose another first grade teacher. They can't handle the change as well, they are working on their masters degree and a lot of the work is focused on first grade (hello!!! It's not a "masters of first grade degree"!), they are inflexible, they are not as strong.
Grrr...I know I'm a great teacher. But I want to be a great teacher in first grade.
I'll have to come over here once in awhile and get my first grade fix.

