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Old 03-02-2019, 07:33 AM
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It makes your body go into shock that lasts a long time

It makes you feel like you are carrying a ton of bricks

You can't sleep

You feel fear, horror, despair, sadness, and regret...all day...

You work hard not to see the image in your mind...

People care but it is hard for them to understand

I never knew these things...

One last....you are now a different person...not bad...just different

As you can see.....I'm processing....getting counseling, reading some good books on suicide, joined a forum, trying to take care of myself...

Thought I'd share ....not trying to be a downer..trying to be real


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Old 03-02-2019, 07:42 AM
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Sending a virtual hug and shoulder to lean on.
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Old 03-02-2019, 07:43 AM
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((Opal)) I'm glad to see you posting these feelings and thoughts. So many of us care and are here to listen . . Your loss is palpable . I send you my deepest sympathies.
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Old 03-02-2019, 07:48 AM
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I'm so sorry that you are going through this! I'm glad that you're getting help through counseling and other means, and that you're working to take care of yourself. Please do post here as often as you need/want to. ((hugs)) and prayers for you!
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Old 03-02-2019, 07:48 AM
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Thank you for sharing. This sounds familiar/similar to the feelings my husband shared with me when his brother died by suicide almost 20 years ago. You are definitely not alone. I applaud you for being proactive and getting therapy and doing some research. Keep checking in on PT when you can. As previous posters mentioned, we care about you!


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Old 03-02-2019, 08:42 AM
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Sending you hugs and prayers! So sorry you are going through this. Glad you are seeking help to get through this very difficult time.
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Old 03-02-2019, 08:43 AM
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Thank you for sharing. I am sorry you are going through this.
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Old 03-02-2019, 08:50 AM
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Opal, sending you a virtual hug and prayers for the journey you are on.
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Old 03-02-2019, 08:59 AM
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Thank you for sharing this. I'm sorry you're going through this and glad you are getting help.
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Old 03-02-2019, 09:09 AM
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That is a beyond painful road your on, Opal. Keep seeking help and be gentle with yourself. I'm so sorry you're dealing with such deep pain.


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Old 03-02-2019, 09:14 AM
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(((Opal)))) I have no words, just gentle hugs.
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Old 03-02-2019, 09:20 AM
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I pray you find peace along your journey.
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Old 03-02-2019, 09:24 AM
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It's a tough journey indeed...sending you lots of strength and gentle hugs
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Old 03-02-2019, 09:30 AM
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My prayers are with you Opal.
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Old 03-02-2019, 09:31 AM
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I am so sorry for your pain. Peace.
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Old 03-02-2019, 09:47 AM
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I am so sorry you are in such pain. Grief for someone close is truly life-altering, but in the case of suicide, it must be its own kind of Hell.

Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as you fight your way through this. So glad to know you are taking care of yourself. There's no way around it, so you are so smart to get help to get through it.

Wishing you peace, my friend.
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Old 03-02-2019, 10:35 AM
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I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. I'm sure it's a pain like no other. Hugs.
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I'm so sorry.
Old 03-02-2019, 11:08 AM
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I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. I have had some experience with suicide as a minister's wife. One thing I've learned is that it's very hard for survivor's to give themselves permission to stop grieving and feel happiness after the suicide of a loved one. Be sure to be good to yourself. My thoughts are with you.
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Old 03-02-2019, 12:20 PM
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I've had to deal with 2 people who were close to me deciding to end their lives. I always wonder what their lives would have been if they had stayed with us. I wish I had an answer for you, but I don't have one for myself.
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Old 03-02-2019, 12:33 PM
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I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Your post is so descriptive and eloquently written. Sending thoughts that you continue to process your grief and share as you feel appropriate.
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Old 03-02-2019, 03:33 PM
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Keep taking care of you. Hugs.
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Old 03-02-2019, 06:52 PM
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I'm so sorry that you are going through this right now. I felt very down for a long time too and I didn't feel like life was worth living. I also processed it all and took care of myself and I'm doing better. I even talk about it on my YouTube channel just because it's cathartic and I want to help others.

Please keep us posted on how you are feeling and ask for help if you feel yourself going further down this path.
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Old 03-02-2019, 07:50 PM
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I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you are in! Our DD attempted it 3x and that was terrifying enough. I cannot fathom going through that loss. I am glad you have sought help. You are in my thoughts and in my heart. We are here for you!

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Old 03-02-2019, 07:58 PM
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Dear Opal,
We are HERE for YOU...anytime...always reach out
Praying you find peace, comfort, and strength.
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Old 03-02-2019, 10:15 PM
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Sending hugs and prayers.
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Old 03-03-2019, 06:50 AM
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That's a list of things I wish no one ever had to learn. I am so sorry.
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Old 03-04-2019, 03:27 PM
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Thank you very much for the support...it means a lot
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