I go to the doctor at 9:00 in the morning and I could so use your prayers! I've been having some breast issues since about April. (Please don't flame me for just now going to the doctor!) My left breast has felt odd...it's hard to describe. It feels uncomfortable when I'm in a reclining position. It feels kind of tight...tight isn't really the right word though.
In the middle of the night I had an itch and when I scratched it, I felt a lump. When I got up the next morning, I think I convinced myself that I dreamed it. I am too terrified to press hard enough to feel it again. I have had sporadic breast pain for a while now too.
I have not shared this concern with anyone...not my DH, not my grown DD, not my sister, not my mom, not my friends....no one knows any of this except those of you reading this. I have carried this burden of fear all alone. Now tomorrow, I have to face up to all of this. I am terrified. I just turned 50. I haven't had a mammogram in a couple of years and I am just assuming the worst. (Even though I try so hard not too!)
I am trying very hard to trust God. I have prayed every day and every night that He will help me and that I will just be o.k. So tonight, I was just thinking that perhaps some of my PT friends would also lift me up in prayer. I do believe 100% that there is power in prayer!
Would you please pray that I will be o.k. and that I will have the emotional strength to get through tomorrow? I am so afraid that I will break down before the exam even begins. I've held this in for so long now and I am beginning to just break down. I'm crying with every key stroke right now. I really need your prayers...
Yes, I will be praying for you. You need your support from your family so please tell them. Trust in The Lord with all thine heart and lean not to thy own understanding.
I stopped and said a prayer for you as soon as I read your post. I pray that God will give you the strength to endure your exam and peace of mind as you wait to find out what is going on.
I do understand your fear and anxiety! A few years ago, I got called back for a second mammogram and ended up having an ultrasound done and two places biopsied. Waiting for results was awful. I found out the day of teacher in service. I was on pins and needles. Turns out, the lumps were benign. Now, I have a diagnostic mammogram done so that I find out results immediately. I get so nervous before the test, but feel immediate relief when it is over.
I also had a benign tumor removed when I was in my twenties. All of this occurred in the left breast also. Lumps do not necessarily mean something bad. I know it is hard to think positively right now, but you can pray for God to give you peace. This is the only thing that helps me get through my mammogram appointments each summer!
Please let us know how things go tomorrow.
Prayers are being offered and positive thoughts are given. I know you want to keep this appointment private but please consider taking some one with you that you feel comfortable with. You don't even have to share the details but it is rather comforting having some one there that you can trust.
Sending you positive thoughts and prayers. Sometimes facing our fears can be very scary but knowing what you are dealing with will give you strength carry on. The unknowns is always worse.
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